It was week one of the Bible Core Course and as I sat in class I asked myself a question,
“What if everything I’ve ever learned about God is wrong?”
I took a moment to collect my thoughts and ideas of God, and I chose to completely submit them to Him, allowing the Holy Spirit room to teach me about God from scratch. I decided at that moment that I was all in and that over the course of the three months of Bible study to come, I wanted God to truly show me who He is.
It has now been three months since the Bible Core Course ended and, as I have taken some time to reflect on my experience, I am filled with joy to see how much more I know God!
One of my main takeaways from this time was understanding that God is not insecure.
What do I mean by that? Well…
Throughout the Gospels, Jesus showed very clearly that He knew who He was.
He was secure in His identity as the Son of God. The people around Him accused Him of lying when He spoke of God being His father, inferring that He was the Messiah. What struck me was that Jesus did not defend Himself; He didn’t say a word. It even amazed the governors and crowds when He didn’t speak up! The only response He would give was confirmation of what they were accusing Him of.
“Then the high priest stood up and said to Jesus, ‘Are you not going to answer? What is this testimony that these men are bringing against you?’ But Jesus remained silent.
The high priest said to him, ‘I charge you under oath by the living God: Tell us if you are the Messiah, the Son of God.’
‘You have said so,’ Jesus replied. ‘But I say to all of you: From now on you will see the Son of Man sitting at the right hand of the Mighty One and coming on the clouds of heaven.’” – Matthew 26:62-62
I remember asking God why He didn’t defend Himself and I heard Him say, “I didn’t need to”. It was so confusing to me at the time – that was until one of my leaders told me about something similar that had happened in her own life. People were attacking her character but she didn’t take it to heart as she knew who she was. She said something that really stuck with me, telling me that
when we are secure in who we are, we don’t need to worry about defending ourselves to others, as the fruit of our lives will eventually show them our character.
When she said that, it brought a peace in my spirit and I felt like God said this peace was the same peace Jesus had when they accused Him. Jesus was so secure in who He was that His identity could not be shaken by anything. He knew who He was and His purpose on earth.
We too can have this same security in our identity as sons and daughters of the living God!
I am able to walk out in this same confidence because I know who it is that is living in and working through me. This is something that I am still learning as I walk into a new season; I know that I can always go back to the example of who Jesus was and what He did. This aspect of His character is something that I can hold on to and be secure in for the rest of my life.
YWAM Bible Core Course Student